In the midst of a physical and mental breakdown, I managed to sit at my old computer and pound out the story of my life, choosing to reveal my most kept secrets as they related to my present situation. Needless to say (breakdown) my present situation was not a good one. I'm not certain what compelled me to write this book. Certainly its subject matter is far from unique. I believe my effort came from a need to tell myself my own story. To get it all straight in my own mind. It was the only way I knew how to sort through the mess, in hopes of making any sense of it.