This is my autobiography, based on my recollection of events that occurred while I lived at 160-17 North Conduit Avenue Jamaica, N.Y. as one of 13 children (1969-1985). It details abuse on different levels and lessons of hate and survival all masked with music, laughter, and sibling rivalry, all hidden but in plain sight, behind the gates and walls of a big, old green house. Despite the tribulations and real-world experiences with prejudice and betrayal, I learned to love and trust beyond the gates.