My books have been such a blessing for me to write, not for the money, or for the people that I know that say oh wow You have wrote books, that part of it means so little compared to when someone I know gets my book and tells me they have it by their bed and it helps them feel peace to go to sleep. Or when someone is hurting so much and they tell me they didn't know anyone would understand and know their pain, and they find someone that has gone through the very thing and are a survivor. When I know that my pain or heartache can help someone else to find a healing or get lead back to God. When I find out that God had poured into me to pour out to someone I could never have met in real life but they were lead to pick up the book and hear what He wanted them to know. That's my real payment, that's my blessing.