The book is about a 12 year old girl who's mom decide to leave her dad whom she was very close, than is given to an uncle which results in her running away trying to find a place to belong but instead gets involved in drugs, alcohol, homosexuality, and prostitution with attempts to end her miserable life she has a son named carl God uses holes in his shoes to give her a reason and a will to live by pointing to the holes and saying you see you not just bringing yourself down you are taking him down with you after 21 years God stepped in and her deliverance began.