2016 Winner of National Indie Excellence Award 2016 Winner of Readers Favorite Award 2016 Honorable Mention, New England Book Festival AN UPCLOSE LOOK AT MENTAL ILLNESS SEEN THROUGH THE EYES OF HOPE AND LOVE. Sue Krupa has written a searing memoir. I couldn't stop reading. Relentlessly honest, the words leave you crying one moment and shaking your head with amazement the next. It's a must read for anyone in need of recipe for triumphing over pain and adversity. (New York Times bestselling author Jeff Benedict) After years of abuse, trauma, and the tragic effects of mental illness tear a New England family apart, a young girl leaves home, never to return. Author Sue Krupa journeys into the past after opening her mother's obituary to find her name omitted in one last act of cruelty. The story unfolds in a groundbreaking format of personal narrative interspersed with digital access points to the author's insights and music, as well as mental health videos. In this multi-media experience, readers will travel from the very depths of sorrow to the joys of unconditional love and forgiveness, discovering transformational resilience and peace are possible. In a courageous tour-de-force of brutal and gripping honesty, this sweeping memoir is as captivating as it is uplifting. I Just Looked Up, delivers a story of self- discovery which voyages from an abusive childhood home in Rhode Island to the rural fields of Kenya, Africa - with piercing heartaches at every turn. Sue Krupa's perceptive, sometimes wrenching narrative reminds us that while living entails suffering--that suffering can open the doors to love that is 'kind, and pure, and free' --a love that grows a forgiveness with the power to open heaven's doors. This insightful book offers much-needed balm, solace, and understanding for the battered and bruised along the path home. (Fiona Givens, author of Crucible of Doubt)