My name is Paul, and I've suffered with Crohn's Disease for thirty years. This is my story of how I've survived. It includes the agony I went through for eighteen months before being diagnosed with CD, what drove me over the edge to try and take my own life one cold and bleak December night, and why smoking cannabis helped relieve my symptoms but soon turned into a serious drug addiction and a different lifestyle that wasn't me. I've learnt how to deal with the emotional side a lot better now, and whether you are a patient or a friend of a patient, please remember to stay positive. You will have bad days, but when the good days do come, live and enjoy them to the full. This is what keeps me going.