This diary tells a true story of a young girl's fight in finding out the truth. Eleven years ago she got pregnant and ended up in a mental hospital where she lost herself and the baby. Vivid descriptions are given of the events that took place and her struggle to regain her sanity. Seven years later she tried to research her medical history and was led on a wild goose chase resulting in a second manic episode. Each entry and poem serves as a map which follows the course of her journey to self-realization and her personal discovery of God.